Dearest friend,
Recently, I found myself praying for an answer.
Not a small, ordinary answer, but the kind of answer that carries weight. The kind that changes direction. The kind that asks you to trust when you cannot see and for a while, nothing happened.
For the first week, my mind and heart were in complete chaos. I questioned everything. I felt restless and I kept wondering if I was doing something wrong, or if maybe I just wasn’t hearing Him. I remember speaking to my partner during that time. He told me gently, “Just keep going. Don’t stop,” but I will be honest. There was a moment when I was tired. Tired of waiting. Tired of not knowing. There was a moment when I thought about giving up and then I realized… this mattered too much to give up on. I didn’t want my will. I wanted His and for that, I had to seek Him. So I kept praying.
Somewhere after about a week and a half, something changed. Not around me. Inside me. Things became quiet. The chaos in my mind settled. The restlessness in my heart softened. It felt like I was no longer fighting the waves, but instead resting on calm water. I kept praying.
Slowly, gently, things began to shift. At first, I didn’t notice it. There was no loud voice. No dramatic moment. No lightning from the sky, but by the end of 21 days… the answer came.
Quietly.
It came in the form of peace. The kind of peace you cannot fully describe unless you have experienced it yourself. A deep knowing. A settled feeling. An absence of striving.
Just peace.
What I learned through this is something I will carry with me for the rest of my life: The Lord Jesus is faithful. He always comes through for those who seek Him. He never fails, but it will not always be in your time. It takes patience, surrender, dedicated and quiet time with Him, because not all answers are loud. Some answers whisper. You have to be still enough to hear them.
I also learned this: when you feel pressure, panic, or urgency forcing you into a decision… step back, because Jesus does not force. He leads with peace, not pressure. So often we hold on tightly, trying to control the outcome. We want the answer now. We want certainty now, but sometimes, we have to let go. We have to give Him space to answer, because if we never release it into His hands, we might miss the answer when it comes and then we say He did not answer.
But He did.
He always does.
Just not always in the way we expect. If you are seeking answers for your life right now, this is what I want to tell you:
Seek Jesus first, before making the decision. Before forcing the outcome and before giving up.
Wait for the peace.
It is worth it.
Always.
With love,
The Whimsical Mailbox